Honestly, I have debated on writing this post for about a month. I have gone over and over it in my mind. What to say and how to say what all is happening in my life is kind of difficult. The main reason is that God has given me a special gift over the past few weeks that I just needed time to process myself I guess. Today, I’m ready to share my secret with all of you.
I’d like for y’all to meet Bo.
Actually, this is me and Bo…bowling with our kids and our friends. I honestly can not say how much I have enjoyed getting to know him over the past few weeks. We met through mutual friends and we have laughed until our sides hurt…a lot. I realize that this is shocking to a lot of folks…heck it’s shocking to me too! LOL
I have decided that God works things out when and how He wants to and as unprepared as I am to accept His timing sometimes…I am grateful for His blessings. I have come to the full conclusion that life is for the living. We are made to enjoy and live each day to the fullest. Bo is a big reason that I am willing to look forward to each new day at this point in time. It feels great to really laugh again.
I have been very cautious and secretive about this amazing person for several reasons. One, I had to figure out how I felt about talking to someone new. Second, I had to decide if we (me and my girls) were ready to take this step forward. Third, I had to talk to my parents and Greg’s parents to get their opinions. I did not go into this blind or without caution. I want to be respectful and honest with them always. After in depth conversations, I come to the conclusion that I was ready to go out with someone new and it was OK to be excited about it!
Greg and I had numerous conversations about this before he died. You don’t get seven heart stints and NOT have some pretty deep discussions with your spouse about life after he/she passes away. I know exactly what Greg wanted me to do…and I have finally realized that it’s up to me to do it. As much as I would love for him to; Greg is never going to walk back through my door. He isn’t coming back and I can’t have the life back I had before September 20, 2015. I have no choice but to move forward with my life without him.
And, out of nowhere here comes Bo. All I know to tell you is that he is a wonderful man, a fantastic father, and he makes me laugh every day. What else could I ask for? At the moment, that’s all I need. I’m not sure what the future holds, but for now get used to seeing me with him around town. I am sure the smile on my face will tell you a lot if you look for it. This is life…and I am determined to make the most of it.
So…to all of you gossiping people go ahead and gossip. Go ahead and say things like, “It’s too early” and “I can’t believe she’s already dating” and “Does she even realize what she’s doing”. Go ahead…because if you have walked in my shoes I would LOVE to hear what you have to say, but if you haven’t the gossip coming out of your mouths will be entertaining to listen to I am sure. Honestly, I don’t give one rip what anyone has to say except for the people I have already talked to and I feel 100% ready for this new beginning. If anything, I hope people will see that life is worth living and God provides exactly WHAT we need exactly WHEN we need it. And, I could not be more thankful!
I see a whole slew of crazy, fun posts in the future! There is a whole lot of life to live…so let the good times roll!