“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” ~ Hebrews 11:1
“For we live by faith, not by sight.” ~ 2 Corinthians 5:7
“We do not belong to those who shrink back and are destroyed, but to those who have faith and are saved.” ~ Hebrews 10:39
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” ~ Isaiah 41:10
How do you make decisions? Do you make out a pros/cons list? Do you consult several people and discuss your options over coffee? What drives your decision making process? I’m curious because I feel like my process is probably not ‘normal’. Looking back on all of the major decisions I have made in my life today, I have suddenly seen a pattern! Isn’t it weird how patterns surround us and we are not even aware that they are there? Yeah, I think this is pretty neat stuff.
Today, I got to thinking back on several key decisions that I have made over the years. All of these decisions have had a huge impact on the direction my life has taken. Like, the time I decided to try to walk on the Volleyball team at Bevill after working for a year after high school. I drove to Fayette, talked to the coach, drove back to Columbus and quit both of my jobs. Within a week I had moved from an apartment with my cousin to the dorms with my sister. Boom!
When I graduated from Alabama and had applied at every school system around except for Winfied, Greg walked in one day and said, “What about Winfield?” I immediately replied, “There’s no way I could get hired at Winfield.”. He said, “I don’t see why not”. So, I got dressed; drove to Winfield; dropped off my application; and before I got to the red light Becky called. Within thirty minutes she was showing me my classroom. Boom! Boom!
When I got my Master’s degree the adviser I was talking to on the phone asked me to decide if I wanted to specialize in Multiple Disabilities or Behavior. Without thinking I said, “Behavior”. Now, I am a Behavior Interventionist…something that didn’t even exist five years ago. Boom! Boom! Boom!
I could literally list hundreds of other decisions that I have made on the spur of the moment that have lead me to this place in my life. Any decision that I have pondered, worried over, or developed a pros/cons list for has always turned out terrible. Some folks might say that I just take a leap of faith…and maybe that’s right. I’m not really sure. The one constant thing that I have always done is whisper a prayer for guidance as I make quick life changing decisions. And, God has always been right there every time. That doesn’t mean that the decisions I made were easy to follow through with though!
For instance, the week after my first two-a-day practices at Bevill, I had to sit on my rear and pull myself up the stairs with my arms because my legs were to sore to walk. The classroom Becky showed me was literally packed from one side to the other with “stuff” that I had to clean out (for over a week!) and get rid of before I could even begin to setup my new classroom. Working as a Behavior Interventionist has caused me to worry, stress, cry, and get furious more times that I could even count.
My road has not been easy, but it has been driven by quick decisions. Most every time I made one of those decisions, I had a conversation with someone just before the decision was made. I remembered some of those conversations today. Which made me stop dead in my tracks when I realized that I had a conversation yesterday that spurred me to make a huge decision today. That’s how God speaks sometimes. He uses the people in our lives to reveal His will for us, just like He uses the Bible to teach us how to follow Him. God speaks to us in many ways, we just have to stop and listen! Time will tell if this quick decision will be life changing for me, but I’ve got a sneaking suspicion that it just might! I’m taking another leap of faith and I honestly can’t wait to see what God has planned next!
Life is short. Time is precious. People are important. I hope that if this new thing works out, I will be able to set the bar even higher for what my story could do for God’s kingdom. Am I terrified? You better believe it! Am I unsure? Absolutely! Am I willing to try even if I fail? Yes I am. I have been reassured today that God loves me and wants me to shoot for the stars, so that is exactly what I’m doing! It is my sincerest hope that you will shoot for the stars with your dreams too! Find that idea, dream, or goal that you buried years ago. Pray about it and ask God to open the doors that He would have open just for you. Then, shoot for the stars! If I can do it at this point in my life…so can you! I see a huge potential for some very exciting stuff to start happening soon! Stay tuned!
Oh…and don’t try to figure out what I’m up to. Don’t make up any ideas about what it might be. Just pray that God’s plans are revealed in His own time. That’s what I’m doing!