Welp, today I have cleaned, cleared, rearranged, and fought the depressing feelings all day. See, tomorrow is a very BIG day for us…for the first time ever I will be taking Maggie school shopping. Boooo Hoooo Hooooo!! In my mind she is still that little bitty girl who was born so sick and who needed her Mama for everything. Now, she is quite capable of doing pretty much everything all by herself.
Fix a Snack…check
But, go to KINDERGARTEN….um NOOOO!!
I know this is probably very surprising for most of you who know me, but if you don’t here’s a few things that you might like to know.
1. I am a Teacher
2. I teach Special Education
3. I work with kids starting at age 3
4. Maggie is my oldest child
5. I am now in very different shoes!!
So, tomorrow we set out to buy crisp new crayons, brand spanking new scissors, Kleenex, Clorox Wipes, Hand Sanitizer, and other various items that I am sure will cost a fortune. We will buy new socks and shoes, hair bows, and clothes. We will find the perfect red/blue mat for rest time, and yes we will even buy new underwear. Then, we will come home and put M A G G I E on every single thing so that she knows what things are hers (as if it matters!!) and in a week I will load her up with me and head to school. Is she ready? Does she remember her letters and sounds? Are there going to be kids that she knows in her class? Will I get to see her at all? So many questions, fears, and doubts!! But, one thing that I know for sure…if she cries a little or holds on a little longer when I give her that last hug…I know and she knows that I love her with all my heart. And at the end of the day when I see her with her little backpack on and a huge smile on her face, I will love her even more. She is not a baby anymore, she’s my big girl and together we are ready to face any challenge that comes our way!!
First…we have some major shopping to do!! 🙂